Today I heard back from a part time job I really wanted.
I didn’t get the job.
I’m so dissapointed in myself. The job was for Apple. The company I invest 90% of my time into despite not even working there yet.
I own an iPhone 6s (I’ve had them all since the 3GS) an ipad, MacBook Pro, iMac, Apple Watch, I convinced my entire family to go to iPhones, not including mine we have an extra 2 iPads, 2 MacBook pros, another iMac and another Apple Watch in the family. I’m a beta software tester for Apple (which basically means I get all the updates first and report back any bugs with the software so it can be improved for the main release. As a result of this I’ve lost all the data on my phone more times than I wish to recall!)
I went to the first interview and felt like I smashed it. Turns out I did. Second interview came along and again, I felt like I’d done so well. I was wrong.
I don’t know what went wrong, I don’t know what happened. I answered all the questions fully and what I believed to be perfectly. However, the interviewers clearly didn’t feel the same way.
I guess I’m used to being rejected from jobs, it’s hard to get a job these days. I mean it was only last week I got turned down from a job because I “wasn’t flexible enough with my hours” it’s just so dissapointing to get turned down from a job that I have dreamed of having for so long.
Apple is my life, for me, Apple is the way of life. It’s the only company to buy phones and computers from in my opinion. I love everything about the company. I even made my family take half a day out of our trip to NYC just so I could go and visit the Apple Store there.
I’m so upset and dissapointed in myself and I know I have to pick myself up and just keep applying for jobs but I don’t want to anymore. If Apple don’t want me when my life revolves around Apple, how can I expect any other company to hire me?